[mindset]

2009-06-16T18:27:00.001+08:00

I also turned 20 with a bunch of happy folks at Home.

Thick, Hard and 9 inches long.

2009-06-16T18:08:00.002+08:00

I officially turned 20 with a bunch of happy folks.!

2009-04-01T03:02:00.003+08:00

I also cannot stand people who are double sided.

If you think you are that important to be a common topic, you are so wrong. Notice how we dont even give a shit that you are not here? Without you, life still goes on. We have seen your true colours which is sad 'cause the colours arent exactly very pretty. Oh wait, they are not pretty at all. Seriously, why even give you a little credit?

I LOVE DALE. DALE SAYS HE LOVES ME. -sidetracked.

School work is piling. I finally feel it. But, I'm still giving myself this sem to consider. I havent skip class so far but its only tuesday. There is still 5 more weeks to decide. My urge is not that strong anymore.

2009-03-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

It is just me?

OR

Does that last picture looks more like a dildo then a hair curler?

2009-03-24T05:24:00.003+08:00

Shawty wanna runn..

You think I'd prolly died somewhere and because of my ugly self, I'm not in the papers. No one reads this junk anyway. Busy with School, Life, Boyfriend, etc. Basically now, I need to readjust, rethink, remodel myself.

Currently, very happy with my love. Happy 98th day.

Its weird how people feel that Dale and I are together for so long when its only 3monthsish. Then, they add: For you, its long enough. So far, Stefan was the longest boyfriend I ever had (and the best too) which was only 4 months and a couple of days. I'm glad that this boy came along and stayed by/with me. Never fail to bring me up when I'm down. Never fail to make my day brighter than it already is. I love you, Dale Roswald Artetes Payacag...more and more each day.

Recently, my classmates and I are on a topic about families. About our other halves' families. How we get along and how we went thru the whole meet-the-parents thing. I'm glad his family and I get along very well. I love his mum! Once, I didnt see her for a week because of the performances and I was whining to Dale how much I miss mum. And also, his mum made me overcome my fear of singing!

Chopped my bangs off. Removed my nose piercing. Gotten prettier (fuck you, haters). Pouting lips = inside joke of a someone. I started combing my hair and conditioning it. Dale kept telling me how important hair is to a human and girls need to have nice long healthy hair. I feel my eyes gotten bigger =/
My love in the family. Without him, I prolly be hanging out in my room with the doors locked, staying in my own world of...uh, idk. But look how cute he is now. I can forsee another playboy in the family. My dad and Alvin were the first two. Idk what happened to Jared. hahahahahaha.

2008-12-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

ANNOYING

2008-12-15T17:29:00.003+08:00

hehhhhhhhhh...

LJ more attractive. Can put Private or Friends Only somemore.

Helo Ishak, I am gonna quit smoking for real now.

I miss all these people but life have to go on. Say, we will meet up soon. A, YOU TATTOO COOL. I ALSO WANT. G, COME BACK LA. K, DONT LAUGH AT MY FB PHOTOS. ARD, YOUR VEST STILL WITH ME! FMING, I NEVER COPY YOU! <3 0707

HAPPY 19th, IMM!
After 4 years of friendship, we are still going strong. The only guy I will ever go shopping with. I love you you know that. I hope you were really surprise at the surprise and fuck la, your house damn nice. We caught you in your telok pants without undies and your potter specs but you are still hot because you are 19 already. Wah, someone going NS to be a big boy. Dont forget to shave your down there and your up there like you say you will. I want to see. Make time for us on your 20th birthday, we will have a blast again. We always do whenever we meet up. F.munkies <33

2008-12-03T16:37:00.002+08:00

I stole photos from FB.

Eh loser, I still think of you every now and then but I am over you. Moved on, completely. I dont cry over you anymore. If Chris never told me she saw you with a blonde chick, I prolly still be crying. I wanted an answer, God gave it to me. I figured that not knowing is always better At least I can live in denial and tell myself that we were happy.

Today was supposed to be 3rd month. However, its not gonna happen and I dont want it to happen anymore. You be happy and I will too. God bless you even if you dont believe in Him. Have a nice life and pray I wont mention you ever again. How have you been, anyways. Heard that you need a new girl.

2008-11-18T05:15:00.004+08:00

Come on, now. Quickly!

P finally got himself webcam so I can see his unmade bed, stop his from scratching his balls, comment on his really weird white walls and watch him eat mini snickers which Varun likes. Love from SG says me Love from UK says he. I cant wait for him to find 700pounds on the floor so he can book plane tickets to fly here again.

Bored while waiting my turn to do my stupid Chinese monologue in front of an audience. Daring of me, I must say that I actually do a 3 minute Chinese thingy on stage despite the fact that I have the most horrible Chinese command and accent ever in class. Joakim says I was good. So did Aiman and Zhang Jing LaoShi. My dad was laughing. Very typical of him. Btw, save the whales!

I'm girl fan number #1. Needless to say I super happy I got a photo with her. I have a crush on her since Year 1 and I'm glad to work with her before she graduates. She was the light designer for A Night with August Strindberg. I remember scribbling down somewhere in my notebook to not miss a single WOA class because she turned up in the class together with the rest of her classmates.

So, I'm nearly done with assessments. I've storyboard presentations at 10am later. Makeup class at 2pm and still thinking if I should go for the Cotton On mass interview. I need a job (at least for the holidays) but 3 girls from my class is already working there. I dont wish to be 'one of them'. But, in the name of cash, just go. Might not get it anyway. IMRAN IS GETTING PROMOTED TO SHIFT SUPERVISIOR OF COTTON ON CCK. Damn cool. So the possibility of me not getting the job is pretty low. He my best guy friend lehhhhhh.

2008-11-14T11:31:00.002+08:00

I'm not sorry at all that I got a better grade than some of them in class in the last repertoire scene. I know its weird that I got a better grade than you. I hope you are not one of those people who thinks all I fucking do is kiss JJ and sleep as Betty. Its hard to stay awake on that bed and even harder to make out with a classmate. All that aside, I really look up to you in Chinese Lectures and its you who bring some interest of that language into me. You helped me alot in Chinese and if I do get a better grade in that class too which I wont, I hope you wont go: All she does is pretend she cant speak Chinese to suck up to the lecturer.

Chinese is hard for me because 1) I dont use that language often. Its been 2 years since I last spoke Chinese. I even took CLB. 2) I have to go thru IPO system (Input process output) in my mind before saying the words. Get what I mean? Input english words Process it to Chinese Output it to people. That takes time for my lack of Chinese words streaming in my head. 3) No interest in that language whatsoever.

Sidetracked.

I really think its because you are the only one who actually read the play so your fellow actors might be the one who pulled you down. I SAID MIGHT. Dont get all so offensive on me. I was equally shocked that I got a better grade okay. Afterall, you were in all three plays and did a really good job. Even ex-bf thinks you are the best among all. Hes english and could only understand you and your diction.

You know who you are and why am I directing this to you? I believe you are the only one who will comment on that.

2008-10-15T21:49:00.003+08:00

All or nothing.

Remember your Secondary/High School days? Or your graduation? Pity me that my batch of graduates didnt have a Graduation Dinner or Prom or whatsoever. However, I really feel like going thru old pictures of my school days with you.

Like everyone else, I sleep in class especially during Chinese classes because I smartly chose to drop it.

My ex-bf who shares the same common interest as me =]]

I even won medals in Takraw Competitions. Okay, not me. its the boys but I love Takraw. FIND ME A GIRL TEAM!!

I hereby show you my uniform as a Jap School girl:

HOHOHO.

You know the best thing about Secondary/High School timetable is that YOU CAN MEET YOUR BEST FRIEND WHO GRADUATED BEFORE YOU.

What about your fav and least fav Classrooms? I know clearly which is my least fav:

Yes, the place I failed to burn down.

In school, where I figure Chinese guys are not so bad after all:

WE HAVE OUR VERY OWN SUPERMODEL TOO!

RANDOM:

In school, we work too.

Whic eventually lead to:

So during Sports Day this is what we do:

The last day of Os:

My crush-turned-hangout buddy:

We tried skating on a table.

I wish I had a Grad.Night =[

I badly want to watch HSM 3 and see how their Grad. Night went. Dont you?

If I had Grad Night, it will turn out to be like this:

BALLOONS, PPL IN RED AND MUSIC!

I love these three items and I know its not my birthday but one can dream right?

This is prolly how it will turn out to be like. Formal wears, formal picture taking, food, table and alot of F*** the DM!!!

imagine:

PARTYING. Thats what you can get from my school parties.

Best best classmates ever:

Jaminah, you still havent tell me why the white tigers fight.

2008-10-10T12:01:00.002+08:00

But its over now. Go on and take a bow.

I cant seem to be able to take my own advice so yea, I now have a plaster on my arm. So much for being clean for a year and hates emo kids.

Sweat drips in my eyes
Screams of lust we cry
Tonight you are everything
You're everything...
You're everything to me no more
As I wake from this perfect dream
I'll escape from Eden's walls
Can I not stay and live this lie?
Go away and I'll think only of myself

And to think that you will not be scared or surprised if I'd severed all these ties
This is the end...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you
One last false apology
Help me get over you

I feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions...would this be the same?
Broken pieces will not mend to save our past now...go away...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you
One last false apology
Help me get over you

Now we must let go
Urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears
I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you
One last false apology
Help me get over you

In my mind
Blood drip from your eyes
A beautiful
Last Goodbye

- Apology

Alesana

Bringing me back to '03 where Sliverstein, Alesana, From first to last, etc were on my mp3 list. I remember Smile In Your Sleep and everytime I listen to it, I got reminded of Puppetcase. I wonder if I still have their video. LOL. Ohohoh, what about Note To Self?

Bf and I... over to the capital O. I shouldnt have told him about the girl and trigger the rocky situation which we didnt plan to visit but than again, I was honest and he couldnt accept it. I'm still praying for him to come back. If he had told me a decent reason (other than I cannot love you anymore but you are a great girl), it wont be so hard on me. I wont be crying till today. I wouldnt have. You are not worth it. I contradict myself but I know it takes time. Harry, I still love you but I am not a doormat. You are the one who didnt listen to reason.

2008-09-24T03:19:00.010+08:00

Live!

I've been missing from the scene or whatever you called it. I am too fed up with Life. I think I've live enough so God, by all means, take me to where you are. Okay, maybe not. Boyfriend never fail to lit my face up. I see him only, I smile already. Sometimes, he dont even have to open his mouth and I'm okay. I love the way he look directly into my eye and as though hes passing some strength into me in that way.

Ahhh, my pillar of strength <33

Happy 20th day, Lucy. I know you hate me calling you that. I miss you. Please come back from KL now. I miss waking up next to you, smelling you in the morning and making you get up when you dont want to. I miss brushing teeth with you in the toilet in the mornings. I miss talking to you. And, I also miss getting drunk. LOL. I cant wait to receive a hug from you the minute I see you. So many things happened and I need you here. I promise not to speak Singlish anymore if you were to appear now =] The past 20 days were the happiest time of my life so far. I can't believe I'm so lucky to have met you. You are not a fucking rebound (although it was time to move on). You know I like you so much that if you were to cheat on me, I will make your balls disappear. Many atimes, I feel insecure but you managed to make me feel so much better. This is what everyone call a Honeymoon period but I beg to differ. Although I get piss-y when you hung up on me and when you said you will call back when you never do because you are too drunk to, I dont wish to lose you. How sometimes because of the different cultures, we argue about drunk people, sex, family, etc but we always ended up the typical way of saying sorry and then kiss and make up. People tell me to be careful of you for the fear of the sterotype: white men wants to get laid. But, how many times have I been fucked up so bad that you will be able to take advantage yet you never do? Plenty. You made me trust you, made me fall for you. Lucy, this is going to be one tough but sweet roller coaster ride.

2008-09-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

Life has been good.

Celine got herself attached, finally. This time, wanting to succeed in both the current relationship and pushing Nas towards the back of her head. Better yet, be completely over Nas =]

Celine had enough of hearing bitching stories. People should learn how to not talk behind people's back and be straight-forward, not a fucking pussy even if they have one. Celine also had enough of people bitching for no good a reason. Just because one is bored or the other party is weaker, gives no one any good reason to bitch about someone else. Thats just very low. Even ants dont do that.

Celine wants people to bitch about her infront of her if they have the balls to. Celine wants people who love bitching about her to tell her that they bitch about her. Celine hates it when people bitch about people to her. Celine dislike people bitching about her friends to her.

Guess what Celine likes.

-> this is so Fazy Wazy.

2008-09-01T01:00:00.004+08:00

Kaopei ah.

I wrote an entry last friday and I couldnt log into Blogger.com to publish it. Today, I managed to come in here only to find that entry missing. Weirdish, I know not.

Its regarding Spanish Dance Class. I swear to god I had a cut on the sole of my foot and fucking endured at least 50mins of the class. Yes, I am not at least interested in Dancing, let alone something spanish. Talk talk mutter mutter, thats what doofus do best, anyway. Even if I dont show interest, at least I will get steps right most of the time. Morever, I dont give the blur face nor ask stupid questions. I am not saying that asking questions is wrong, fool.

Sorry that I got band background. I can read notes (both treble and bass clef now!!) and can count [1 E N A 2 E N A 3 E N A 4 E N A] so that kinda makes Spanish dance easier.

But if you think its really my fault that class was end 3 mintues before 11 than okay lor. My bad that I had a cut and I had to dance because its under complusury (?SP) module which I cannot drop.

Must bitch bitch now. After a few hours, cannot already. Must tahan one month somemore. No alcohol, Celine.

This year, Baybeats sucked. Moshpit full of mats pushing each other. No bruises for once because no moshing for Celine for once. Typecast was ze best. Electrico didnt appeal this year. Boys like girls was best live though. Thanks to the couple who gave me their tags!

2008-08-28T19:05:00.001+08:00

HELLO TO EVERYONE.

I DONT DONT LIKE THE YEAR 3s!
Please dont get me involved.

*cries.

2008-08-27T20:43:00.002+08:00

2 words : kau best

Fyi, I go NAFA not because I got no where to go. I believe some of my classmates are but as we progress in our work, we slowly grew to love where we are and thank god we chose to be here. However, I will appreciate it if people do not look down on Art Schools people. We happened to know where we want to be in the future.

Just for the accord, I was accepted by a local polytechnic, Dip In Business Applications. Everyone in my old class was shocked. I mean, me? In Business? Thats funny. Even my teacher felt that I made a good choice by going into The Arts. Her testimonial about me was; " ..will do good in media industry."

I hope that shut people up about my studies.

Stupid people spreading rumors about anyone wanting/going to quit school, should die. If you are bored, go hump a tree.

2008-08-09T13:12:00.006+08:00

I better start posting pictures before I got into headlines of some newspaper.

Lina finally turned 18th. Lied to her about going to KFC to do Claire's work and thanks to Rash and JJ, some of the class came to KFC with a small cake to surprise her. I think we all agree that that was needed to ease some tension going on in class. Go! Theatre. More pictures here: http://s2.photobucket.com/albums/y44/cellytubbies/linabday08/

Watched NDP Preview with Affiq. His dad is in the civic line so he gets tickets every year. Second time going with him. Gonna make it a tradition. More pictures here: http://s2.photobucket.com/albums/y44/cellytubbies/NDPP/08/

Booked a slot at Fleamarket@SMU with Intan but no crowd. Saw couple of eye candies. Bumped into Verena Tay (ex Speech and Text Lecturer) and Anis' store was beside mine. Jacklyn was also there but her fengshui sucked more. Went over to RP for a gig (PLAINSUNSET!) with Fatin and two of her handsome guy friends. More pictures here: http://s2.photobucket.com/albums/y44/cellytubbies/fleamarketcumripgig/

Firdaus turned a year older. Had free dinner and cakes. Got like scared by two balloons. No thanks to his neighbour's friend who is a cute-looking mat.

Kept in touch with my band roots. Still cannot side-read as well as last time. Boo. At least, I can pitch high high Bb now. Wohooo. More pictures here: http://s2.photobucket.com/albums/y44/cellytubbies/band%20kaki/

2008-07-28T03:42:00.003+08:00

2 balloons gone.

I think you are not really my friend. Apparently, you are like any others. In your eyes, I can see that I am nothing but a loser. If this is how you want it to be, I bet you two cents you will regret it bigggg timmme. No use trying to guess who am I talking about, 'cause you you you you you you and you are guilty =]

On a lighter note, Grace is back. Yay, free ciggs.

But fuck, Singing class in a few hours' time. I am singing "Milkshake" for placement class, not.

2008-07-24T01:38:00.002+08:00

I swear I am the ultimate online stalker.

You scareddd righhhtt...

I feel like a Secondary School girl again. Its been a long time since I go gaga over a guy in school. No, its not the freshmen. Someone that I always bump into since last sem, thought he was cute but didnt bother to do anything because ya, I was hopelessly not over Nas. I am coping well these few days.

This sem, I kept seeing him like everywhere in school and outside. It felt like the whole 'Rudy' history is repeating except that I already have that guy's number but I refuse to make the first move in texting him. I shy laaa~

I remember how dumb I was when I had the school girl crush on Rudy. What stupid things Roy suggested me doing like giving Rudy the most innocent look when he looks over or saying Hi to Rudy (which I did) when he meets him every Saturday (remember, HSC?). I couldnt stand in front of stall 8 if Rudy was there. That was how silly I was.

Ahhh, uniformed life. How I dont miss my ex-classmates. Weirdly, I never like to talk about classmates but only what happen in school like me having the shortest skirt in the school which according to the DM and some tiko prefects, I look like a cheerleader -.-'' I remember safety pins and double sidedtapes and that Indian girl with green transparent bag. Oh, Shan Square too. I couldnt possibly forget that. I still get weird e-mails but look, I dont care. It ended up in my junk too.

His dimples....

2008-07-19T11:39:00.002+08:00

Dear God, I want to turn back time.

I need to upload alot of photos but I lazy. I need to go and develop my HongKong photos but I lazy. Due to the fact that I am lazy, I havent shower nor brush my teeth and its already 1145h. I want to go bowling now now now but because I am lazy, I havent shower nor brush my teeth and its already 1146h. I think I lost quite a number of my HongKong photos. I cant seem to find them in my hard disk, Celig or Aspiral. Thanks to the fact that I am lazy.

School is starting in 2 days' time (man, how long did I not mention school?). I dont know to look forward to it or not. I am taking all three electives if the timetable allows it. If not, I will be torn between The World of Arts and Puppet Theatre! Or was it The World of Arts and Introduction to TV and Film Productions? I wish I was Hermonie (?SP), she has that time turner thingy so that she can still go to classes that clashes.

I miss Band Practices! I cant wait for Wednesday. Hopefully, school doesn't end too late so I can still make my way to Woodlands. I need to quit smoking end of the month and quit lying to people that I didnt start smoking. Smoking is ugly. It is so not Gossip Girl. Timetable will only be given on Monday at 1pm which means School officially starts on Tuesday. I can't wait to meet the Year Ones again! This is crazy, I swear.

Grace is sooo coming back on the 27th. WooooO~ Burrrrlingtonnnnnnn, Brrrriiinngg it On, Muuussttafaaaa, Seeaaawwweeddds, etc. I cannot wait. I will make sure every single living soul at home goes to school. So no one will have to repeat anything.

Okay, Imma head to showers, daydream about Gracie's arrival while shitting, get ready to head to bowling alley, pray that school dont start 9am every single day, quit having band songs in my head and I really got to run.

OH HELLO CHAZ ALI! THIS IS LUDARIS BTW.

2008-06-25T03:13:00.002+08:00

Digitalism

My blog is dead. I know. I'm over at here most of the time. I'm sorry but I have the sudden urge to put everything either Friends Only or Private. You see, unlike most bloggers, I actually have a private life of my own.

I'm back to dissing people...In General.

Sometimes, I sit on my computer chair and ask myself why dont I have a boyfriend. Wait, before I go on, this is not about Nas. I feel its time to move on and not allow his slightest presence linger anywhere around me. I realised I'm 19 and if I want to fulfil my goal, I need to act immediately. First, I need to get into a stable relationship.

I knew it. I fucking know it that one day, I will be out of suitors. The day havent come (sorry to disappoint you) and I should stop being picky about Boyfriends or that day will come sooner and its man-made by me. I must start to like them for who they are. Even if they are not hairy. Or Chinese.

I dont have a boyfriend because

1) I'm picky.

I go on dates so often but the boys usually dont last more than two weeks. I get sick of them very easily that seeing one of their bad dress days, turn me off. I must learn to overlook their flaws.

2) I am fat.

Fat Malay girls are 'in'. Fat Chinese girls are 'out'. Come on, you walk down to street, you see Fat Malay minahs with Handsome mats. Skinny Chinese girls with Ahbengs. Or maybe, it was my luck that I only see these two "culture". Fat Chinese girls seems to have no choice and I am choosy.

3) I am arrogant, bitchy, lazy and dumb.

Enough said.

Although I havent meet Mr A before, I think I will like this Mr A. Maybe, just not now.

I dont know why but I just lied to Hafiz S. that I have a boyfriend. That actually felt good. Having to imagine a boyfriend outta nowhere that seems real...SRT later. More work. Love love

2008-06-23T22:10:00.001+08:00

Here's to you.

My phone rang.

And it wasnt you.

Disappointed =[

2008-06-12T14:13:00.003+08:00

Balls to that.

Everyone, well, almost, remember mybirthday =] I feel important and special despite the fact that I officially turn 19 today 7am. My parents made me blow my candle and cut my cake at midnight. How sweet but for the record, I was deeply engross in finishing up my last episode of Gossip Girl than excited to cut my cake. My cake, this year, taste like durian, smell like durian and look like durian. Yum.

The candles look sick

Anyway, here's a letter for myself from myself to myself.

Dear Celine,
How are you? Haven't spoke to you the longest time. Really hope you are doing fine with your life. I mean, how bad can it get anyway?
Life will have to go on even without Nas okay. You be strong and stay strong <-wise words of Intan, your bestie. I believe there are guys out there for you and willing to do anything for you. You know you are attractive and I dont understand why you dont give them a chance to prove to you that they are obviously wayyy better than Nas? Afterall, your mum wants you to bring home a white or yellow guy. No, dont even think about it. No girls. Your grandma will freak.
School's school. You be happy that you actually have friends that arent as fake as you think. Well, everyone is a fake. That includes you. Face it, you secretly dont like all those practical lessons. You hate to spend money at FongSeng. You rather stay away from everyone else during breaks because you cannot stand the way they are being fake to each other. Why dont you just tell them off? Isnt that your life in Secondary School? Who do you think you are now? Serena Van Der Woodsen? Sorry, this is not Gossip Girl. This is reality.
You are 19 now. Be sensible. Know whats good for everyone else.
Despite you being bimbo/sarcastic/lame/blonde almost all the time, you know you love me. Seriously, sometimes, I wonder how can you be all the above at the same time?
Love,
Celine

p/s: This letter can go on. But since we are in the same body, you know what I want to say/tell.

2008-06-07T01:51:00.000+08:00

I will learn how to dance only if my teachers are half as hot as them. Thanks to Youtube.com, I'm still awake.

2008-06-06T11:53:00.002+08:00

Moderate Comments

I'm thinking of shifting to L-Jay fo'real, my shizzles. But I cannot let go of the old life (BIO3! Grace, where are you!) and the 701 entries. God, this blog has been with me thru thick and thin for like like like (GRACIE, WHERE ARE YOU!!) 5 years. That's super long for a 3-minute person like me.

Recently, Life has been wonderfully good (except the absence of G.Kim). I miss 175B, Burlington Sq. Tower B #07-07. Now, dont go ordering Macds/Pizza to that place to play prank because no one will be there to answer the door. Speaking of that, I forgot my camera charger and Celig is collecting dust in a corner. I remember putting it inside the bag but Kai must have taken it out when he brought Celig out one fine day =[

Should I open my heart out again? It seems so easy but hard. Why can't I just move on like how he has already done so? Maybe, I need to see a shrink. Or just die and ask Him why. I dont understand why I've met new guys but ended up comparing. Shit dang balls. Oh fuck, thankfully there are things to look forward to.

Hong Kong Trip next Friday. Night Safari on Monday. Countdown to me turning 19. Lost Labour Love's daycamp. Event on 28th at Arts Museum. Outting with Classmates which is still in preparations. Roy's birthday celebration cum Iryan's sent off to NS party this Saturday. Party set designs by coming Tuesday. Bag design by today!

I guess I must have nearly over work my braincells. I simply love organising. Een gave me a chance to be part of something meaningful. I discovered new local acts last night( thanks to Sharime. That guy is cousin of Kae. "Small world" - said the both of us when I told him I am classmates with Kae. Aquarius and Gemini has tons in common.) which I'm gonna try groom them ?!?!

One day, I will be a successful manager, managing a successful touring band....in my dreams. Yes, they will tour every inch of lalaland. My lalaland.

2008-06-05T04:29:00.003+08:00

I've been here for too long.

I am still high. I took a break from work and spent every second wisely:

31st May - Work till 3pm. Official Photographer for Popcorn Playa (aka Zumbabay). Donning on a new DaFam tee makes me feel important despite the hiatus I pulled on the Family. Chaz has been telling me how much he misses me and all but I can't see to squeeze extra time for him. It was great to see them all again after so long. Plus, a new friend was made.

1st June - Work till 4. Rushed home to get ready for The Concert. Third time watching them live and they are still as good. I just wish they didnt change vocalist. I mean, most of the fans (no offence), I believe, are just fans of Kyle Patrick. The amount of screams he got when his picture was up is evidence. No doubt he got a good range of voice but I still prefer Eric. Ben Romans didnt let me down. I want my son to play like that. Joe Guese is so cute I can just go up the stage, beat up all the guards and plant a kiss on his cheeks. I just realised the last time they came to SG was in Oct.

2nd June - Filming at Mediacorp. The last day shoot of Volleyball love. Marcus and I had so much fun playing volleyball while waiting for them to wrap up. I love Jessica Liu. She's so witty and pretty. Next on my list is Jade Seah, followed by Joanne Peh and Dawn. Secretly, I think Christopher Lee looks really old. No pictures because I am no groupie. Went Jurong Point, nearly lost my way. Done abit of shopping and I got two new books!

3rd June - Filming for Fly entertainment - Just an extra; a passerby. Got home at 3ish. Supposed to meet Ishak ang gang for pool but got lazy. Besides, I dont play pool; only yahoo.com/pool. Alvin booked the badminton court so I went to apply for PAssionCARD and had a game or two of badminton before heading to 399 to get photo frames.

4th June - The Click 5 in Indon already =[[ Woke up in the noon. Met Perry to go to granny's. Spent the whole day there and made my way home. Intan called so we met up to go Macd's. I just remember I still have milkshake in the freezer. That can be breakfast. Came online, crapped with Youying and made plans for tomorrow. Yay!

Shite, I just remember I got to work on Friday 5 to 10pm. I'm gonna attend Shwinning Class at 12.45pm and then, grab a trainer to train me. Get the closing shift to come in early so can have food with me first. Muahahahaha.

2008-06-02T02:35:00.002+08:00

For the third time in my life, I watch them live.

Tonight, I die a happy girl.

2008-05-18T05:32:00.002+08:00

One in a million. Not in this lifetime.

Here's something I mean to say. Something I never dare to say. Now, I really want to say it.

Dear Captain R**N**,
How are you? I'm fine, thank you.
I know this might not get to you and I am not hoping that it will. In fact, I wish it won't. I know how much you left your ego and to express everything to me. No matter how much people feel that I do not cherish you, I actually do. Remember how I told you honestly that I only liked you and its not any step furthur. Truth to behold, you made me love you. But you chose to leave me. Karma, I know. I had a feeling from the start of the 'second round' that you are just 'a tit for a tat'. I was afraid yet you are too hard to resist.
Knowing that this won't do the both of us good because you do have a girlfriend now and I'm glad you didnt wait like you said you would for I dont know when will I pluck out the courage to say I miss you. You are happy now and I am happy for you. I just want to say that I'm still here for you when you need me.
Yes, I haven't be able to move on despite meeting new guys at work and from friends. It doesn't matter if they show interest in me. To be honest, I haven't date anyone ever since you left me. It seems to me that I've been comparing those guys with you. That suck balls.
And guess what. You seem to be haunting me. Yesterday, I saw this guy who looked like you from far and he happened to be one of the hairstylist. He did my hair or rather, he pick me for we are standing in a straight line waiting for the hairstylists to be available. Your hair colour, dressing, skin colour is the same. I dont really know how you look like now for its been ages since we met/bump each other.
I type as if you are no longer around. I miss you even as a friend.
Love,
ex- Babygirl_69

2008-05-17T00:33:00.002+08:00

Jukebox

Holidays are here...be it official or not. I just remember that I need to do an essay for Andrew which need to be sumitted tomorrow at 2359h. 800 words = one word = die.

I know I have been missing from this blog and my LJ (to those who have access to both). I promise this blog is gonna be more alive soon k. I love my job as a receptionist and everyone knows I am a workaholic.

Hongkong trip next month. Less than a month's wait. Gracie leaving for vacation coming monday, coming back only in August. Gonna miss BS and her. Birthday next month. Shite, getting older. Not really funny okay.

The end la. I lazy type.

2008-05-12T03:29:00.003+08:00

Express Movies

My blog post works but to the wrong crowd of people. Now, people thinks I'm weird. And hey, guess what! I'm weird. I'm strange. Beware! Muahahahaha.

So here's another:

Old people makes me smile.

Kids Central called me on Thursday while I was moving planks(?SP) from scary B1 to Level 3 asking me if I want to do R.E.M (the new version) on Sat and Sun. But I got assessment the whole of Sat so I gave that up. God, I love that show. Rachel, E-ching and Mo. LOL. I used to catch it every Sat Morning. Damnit. This one, its the truth.

2008-04-12T18:52:00.001+08:00

When your name is Celine,

Please respect it.

"XxNeO ShU LixX /XCeLiNeXx
Likes children a lot!!"

What the fuck is that?

2008-04-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

One day, chickens will rule the world.

There's a big FUCK YOU to everyone out there.

Its getting into me that I cant take this any longer. However, I am still bitting onto it. Dont make use of me to strike a conversation just because 1) the situation demands it 2) you are into him 3) there is nothing else to talk about. If you fucking want to go out with him, use your own guts, damnit. Why include me in? This is not the movies.

And I do not fucking say YES unwillingly when I want to say NO. For that, hey, Joakim, fuck you too =]

I feel like having bread but walking to A.J (across the road) is a hassle. It sucks that you saw something you shouldnt see/read and you cannot ask/comment because you are one of those people who pretend to fuck care about everything. I am not weird and you neednt pretend. Really.

2008-04-02T14:22:00.000+08:00

369.

This is the worst sem. I hate you.

2008-03-27T02:12:00.002+08:00

Boots with the furrrrr

I dont know why and how but I managed to lose 2 kg. I am going to keep up with this till I am back to 50kg. Its not that far away. I can do it. Somehow, I feel good eating less and seeing my weight going down. Unhealthy but fuck you, my self esteem is at stake now especially the people I am around with makes me feel unworthy of being alive.

I wish I never see the sun goes down.

Running away is never a choice in my life. I think I have reached the peak in life that I want to die. I've lived enough. I had enough. I've lost so much that I want to start anew. Going through a shitload of things and not being able to say it out suck balls. Breaking the habit of keeping a bottle of my thoughts in me is hard. The only real friends I have are Mr Pillow and Mrs Bolester. Yes, it sucks to be me.

Everyone thinks that I am a hapy-go-lucky girl who is not sensitive. In fact, I know those who treat me as a Male. I dont know if that is how I want people to see me as. But it hurts big motherfucking time when the jokes are about me and created because of me. I am only human. Not a joke to be messed with.

Acceptance. Is that it? Again, where do "I" f_t in? (-taken from JoakimJudeShaneGomez.)

Behold the 411. I am a super sensitive 19 year old girl. Happy now? Does that sound like every other normal girls you see about on the streets? It sucks having to type all these shit out. All I want is to be happy and I've been able to so do all these years with close to zero real friends. I am not embarrass to say that I still have my imaginary friend.

Life is all about living it to the fullest, no? So, I became that I-cant-be-bothered person you see now. We all die. Sooner or later. So why should we all be bothered by kinky shit people will feed us with? Suddenly, I broke down last night. I couldnt take it anymore. But, because of my old habit, I wasnt able to say it out loud. Especially to girls (sorry Grace and Ally). I suck at expressing my own emotions.

I realised that this is the first time I typed out a long ass blog entry about me. The real me. The me that no one knows. I hope at the end, I got the courage to click publish and not save. I think I will still get tease from people even after this. I got more than enough guy friends to prove this point.

When I am pretending not to be sensitive, I get bullied indirectly and not get my feelings considered. When I say I am sensitive, people tend to not want to be friends with someone who is that sensitive. Its so complicating that I want to walk out of everywhere. I want to live in the Northpole where penguins are pets and fish is dinner.

I am strong. I am special. I am not who you think I am. I am sick in the mind. I read about Autism all the time. I am better in Maths than English. I am not bulimic. I do not have a crush on Jon. I've got three younger brothers and I dont like it. I always want an older sibling. I hate the fact that I am spoilt and pampered. I pretend to be arrogant so that people will be scared of me because I am scared of them. I am rich but I hide my cash under my pillow because I dont trust the bank. I super scared of the cold. I suffer from insonmia but every night I pretend to sleep and finally fall asleep sooner than I expected so I wont have a hard time trying to blend in. I dont dig my nose at all. I am vain and self concious. I always wanted to be a teacher but I know I will get laughed at so I chose Theatre because I can end up being a Drama Teacher. I am very afraid of cockroaches. I play sepak takraw/floorball with the boys in school which makes the girls see me as a whore. I run 2.4km using only 10 minutes or less and run somemore if I want to. I got gastric problem and secretly, I enjoy it. I hate hardcore music but I listen because its 'in'. I mosh only for bruises because I am a sadist. I think 50cent is so hot. I am very cheapskate.

Tired. Sick. Can you now leave me alone and let me live my life the way I want? Isn't that all you want to hear? Myths and Legends. Go figure which are sarcasm. Life is a joke to begin with anyway.

2008-03-25T01:21:00.002+08:00

Camp Kill Yourself.

No seriously, dont laugh but I dont have a crush on Jon. I wonder what did I type/say to depict that? I am never one of those girls who will not dare say "I have a crush on you" to a guy. Well, except Nas. I think he's happy with that girl rght now and I should be too. I cannot expect Nas to sit around and wait for me to finally decide that I need him. And up yours if you ask me to tell Nas how I feel because its too late and I dont want that girl to feel sad for I can see that she really likes him. But, I dont like her not because shes with Nas, really. There are always two side to the coin.

I dread going home (Jurong). I dont want to face my parents. Rather, my mum. I cannot stand how she always think she's right and that everyone in the family is against her. I hate having to visit my mum's side of the family since young. I am the only grandchild that actually look after the younger cousins; running after them and feeding them. I am not whining. I actually enjoy doing it but it never gets appreciated. It seems like I have to do it because their father ran after me when I was younger. Hello, I volunteer without anyone asking me to do so.

Nigel Ng has always been my Favourite brother. I dote on him so much that I always see green in Jared's eyes but he didnt say anything. Nigel ended up being Jared's target when he feels like bullying someone. Nigel, without fail, runs into my arms. Lately, all Nigel could do is call me and cry. Sometimes, my mum disallow Nigel to ring me up. I miss Nigel Ng Yong Qi.

Meeting Intan on Wednesday. Something to look forward to. I cant wait to go back on Friday night. Nigel is turning 7 on Saturday. Being able to not see Jon this weekend seems like a goood idea. Ha.

2008-03-25T01:08:00.001+08:00

eeeeyeerrrr.

For the umpteen times, no way am I harbouring a crush on Jon. I do not have a crush on him..

2008-03-25T01:06:00.001+08:00

eeeeeyeerrrrr.

i aint got crush on him.

2008-03-25T01:06:00.000+08:00

eeeeeyeerrrrr.

i aint got crush on him.

2008-03-23T03:55:00.002+08:00

i spent nearly 10 days with you in the same apartment. back to camp you go. thats when i feel lost suddenly. weirdly. because i knew you long ago but there wasnt any sparkle. maybe because you happened to be there when im drunk and in pain. so i shouldnt think that i have a crush on you although you are on my wallpaper. once again, weird.

And I dont know why I was so lazy to CAPS the beginning letter of each sentence. I think I am in shock. I found out that Rudy's classmate (Intan and mine eye candy) was a nerd from my Secondary School. He is so hot now.

I prefer you botak.

2008-03-21T01:11:00.002+08:00

Because I am cooler than your fridge.

I merely wanted to show this off before i go home and flip my parents out.

2008-03-08T21:41:00.033+08:00

I miss my best friend =/

Back home for the weekends. Sweetness. I assume I should start blogging weekly. Something like Postsecret.blogspot except that I do not have that much readers nor secrets to post. Shite, its raining. Perfect weather to sleep in.

Fairul's 21st:

We got candles that cannot be blown out so Fai got really confused why he couldnt blow some candles out. And then, he finally cuts his cake after minutes.

Fai and Jelly

Grace is blonde.

He havent even start drinking and he looked drunk.

Hakim, the Happy Boy.

Chicks gone Wild:

Its very scary to see my good friend cum son of a Gan, Paychin, become a fag.

We tried the whole The L Word Photo thingy but it didnt exactly work out the way the pirated DVD cover looks like. LOL.

HAPPY 21st FAIRUL!

Hangover. Didnt go for Body and Movement. Playmaking session with group was alright thou.

****

Went Swimming with Vickie, Daeia, Rum, Rash and E-van. Than, we headed to IMM to get food. Saved $1.08 because E-van's friend, Nikki (?SP) gave us a ride there. E-van and Nikki left with the rest of us went on an impromptu window shopping. Rum left us to pack her stuff for she was flying back the next day. So, since the night is still young, we went Esplanade to lepak.

Cheena gals in the making.

Rash is going to show her mum this. Look at our lips contrast.

Only Daeia can do that. Only she can do it. Now, I am craving for frog legs.

Rum sexy pom pi pi.

This, I swear, wasnt candid. Vickie's looking at my bust, one thing she doesnt have.

6 beautiful women standing in front of you. One of them will be going home tonight. Only 5 will remain the running of NAFA Next Top Models.

Top 6 NAFA Next Top Models.

****

Met Nashir up impromptu-ly. That poor guy got posted to Police Call Center and gets prank calls everyday on Mas Selamat's whereabouts. LOL.

He said hes too dark so we shifted abit and...

He became fairer!

2008-03-06T01:44:00.002+08:00

I've created two photobuckets overnight.

SAs:
Username is nafaambassadors
Pw is (same as blog)

Theatre Dept:
Username is theatrenafa
Pw is acting101

I can see that I am a very lazy girl so uploading it all at the same time will save me a whole load of time and money. So please right click and save from there. Dont be lazy.

2008-03-06T01:17:00.007+08:00

From thailand to Japan.

Life so farrrrrr...

End of Greek Play.

My cousin.

I turned into a 80 year old virgin.

Nafa next top models.

Burlington is burrrrrrrcolddddd.

2008-02-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

I've got two toes on my left foot.

A picture tells a thousand words. I've got thousands and thousands of photos which I obviously failed to upload because:
1) I arrogant.
2) I lazy.
3) Mind your own business.

Aspiral's disk space is running low. All the music I have takes up like more than half the space. My hard disk is still with Intan. My pictures are kept in my CF and SD cards. I hope that serves as a better explaination as why I dont update as often or put pictures up. I am not like someone who takes picture of every single fucking thing and uploads in blog every single day.

I got things to do. I am not that free. I have a life.

2008-02-10T03:58:00.001+08:00

Here's Alvin NYJ. Who changes girlfriend three times in a month. A.k.a my brother.

2008-02-10T03:42:00.000+08:00

Somehow someday

Aku tak suka kau, kau, kau, kau, kau dgn kau.

Thats prolly what I'd say when I'm piss and than move on with life. Still, very weird. This year's cny is weird. My maternal grandma is overseas with my mum's eldest sis' family. Yes, finally, peace. Almost every household I went to, random once a year we meet kinda relative will skip me or ask if I am married. _|_

I've got so many new dresses/clothes, I dont know what to wear sometimes. Shite, it sure sucks to be me. So fast Sunday already. I dont want to go back to school so soon.

Happy belated birthday, X!

Cb, so fast 19 already. So old cannot eat also.

2008-02-06T13:38:00.000+08:00

Haste.

There is something super wrong with me these days. I used to be such an angry kid. I flare up and about on the spot. Now, I am so controllable! I even ignore things that disgust me and turn words of unkindness into deaf ears. I get angry but only for a few minutes which sucks because it leaves me nothing to blog about.

I dont like the fact that I am not angry anymore. I like my bitchy self - live life like an american high school girl who is the popular cheerleader - like the days in Secondary School. Everyone in school knows me but I didnt know them all. At first, I was abit embarrassed 'cause I really got no idea who are they when they come up to me and say Hi. Then, I got used to the attention. In NAFA, everyone is like so distant.

During Open House, Yuhua came and I was surprised that the Sec 5 students remember my name. Of course, I dont know half of them and dont remember their names. But, it felt good for once that people know me. I took last time for granted. I run away when I see people appoaching me - Be it stranger or not.

I am arrogant. So sue me.

2008-02-03T01:54:00.000+08:00

Oh my pretty pretty.

I hope this entry of photos will bring live to my blog again.

CAMPUS THREE PEOPLE.

It reads NAFA.

Mel.

Sharis.

Color Contrast.

Nura-ma-lina.

Uncle Ray who sits there do nothing and earn $8 per hour.

Arts Management, Theatre and Ahpek.

My Lasalle Partner. We went to Lasalle OPEN HOUSE in NAFA tee.

Momo.

RUM IZ SMILING woRx.

Surprisingly, Gayle and I have the same expressions. We didnt plan it.

I am Hot. You are Not.

I was seriously trying to do the Angelina Jolie Lips but I failed.

Cutest Chocolate Chip guy.

Poster girl.

Second Cutest Chocolate chip guy.

This one is fashionably late.

Tons of Phototaking going on.

My emo matrock indon bf.

Poster boy.

I am pretty amazed by what I can do with my face.

To view more: CLICK HERE LA DEY

2008-01-28T02:13:00.000+08:00

Grape to know you.

-= [ rahu ] =- says:
celine.
-= [ rahu ] =- says:
how r u?
its grape to know you. says:
good.
-= [ rahu ] =- says:
ur O results how?
its grape to know you. says:
i where got take Os?
its grape to know you. says:
I NAFA LEH

OMG. I forgot when I was 17.

2008-01-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

Cliques

I am not ordering my bag. I dont see the point to at this time. I rather step into CELINE and purchase my bag and laminate the receipt or something.

So, Basic Theory Prac. is today and guess what, I did 4 booklets and failed all 4 booklets. 90% being the passing grade, I got only 85% highest. Most of which, I misread the question. But hey, not too bad for a first timer! I hope I can pass Friday's evaluation so that I can sit for March's paper and officially apply for that temp. license which I forgot what is it called.

Meanwhile, I also needa get ready for Final Theory Prac. and Evaluation. I see money deducting from my bank account on its own.

I havent been going to school regularly and its bad because its only the second week of school. I hate sleeping problems and lack of motivation to go to school. Why isnt there any humane-like guys in my campus?

Amal made me realise why I say Posterboy Joel is cute. He looks like Intan's classmate, Boey. Only skinnier version. Maybe they are cousin/brother. I mean, look at their names! I finally think that Chinese guys are cute. Give me some lovin' okay.

ARghhs, PLEASE LET ME WAKE UP FOR SCHOOL TMR!

2008-01-18T02:14:00.000+08:00

Eye shadow

I bet almost everyone know that I want to own a CELINE bag before I turn 21. Apparently, I think that dream is coming closer =]

Oh, I love online shopping.

2008-01-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

I've got no idea.

School is starting in a few hours' time. I am not looking forward to it. My timetable suck balls. I cant wait for my Basic Theory Lesson 1.01 later more than acting/makeup/voice. My classes are officially on an average of 3hours and I do not have break until 2pm later. 9am to 2pm, I WILL JUST DIE OF HUNGER THERE.

At least, there is no more long breaks. 4 hours break means 2 movies means $6 x 2 means me being broke. Woohoo.

I had the weirdest dreams lately. Really weird dreams. And, I hope the curse of me having a boyfriend only during the Chinese Festive Season is broken. For close to 4 years, I have been living such a life. Yes, it sucks to be me. So far, I haven't had any new guys in my life unless you count that guy I said Hi to at my class BBQ who is X's friend who dropped by to meet X.

Can you believe that I dreamt of X and being a third party in the same horrible dream? X is my best friend's boyfriend. X and I happened to have something going on in secret. When I was with my Best friend, X called me and I answered. I whispered I LOVE YOU to him while my best friend is behind me, trying on clothes.

WTH! Its weirder than dreaming of Intan and that Jelly lift.

Last night, I dream of my ex boyfriend, S. S and I dated some time back in Secondary School. Like 5 years back cans? He has a girlfriend now and he became quite a mat/junkie. I remembered him calling me two years ago when he was drunk, asking why we broke up. I never tell anyone this but outta all my ex boyfriends, I really fell for this fucker. And I got to know the actual reason why we broke up 3 years after we broke up. CB.

I dreamt that I was his girlfriend again and this time, very serious. This girl came up to him and manje with him, asking why so long never call her. He just smiled and say will call soon when I am beside him. I didn't say anything but I wasn't happy. Then, I really don't know what happened but I really wanted to be with him and was really happy with him.

God, dreams confuse people and JJ says that dreams are part of our subconscious.

2008-01-09T12:19:00.000+08:00

happypills or lackthereof.

The lack of updates show the lack of entertainment in my life. Actually, there are entertainments but not entertaining enough for me to spend time blogging. In fact, the blogging bug left me ever since the holidays started because NOTHING PISS ME OFF!

Except for that time when I want to register for modules or when that Tiqtiqbomb guy who wanted to kick me outta the club or when I called the dumb school and some dumb IT guy spoke me to quite dumb-ly or when I heard that some lecturer left the school and we got to beg for that lecturer to come back to teach because the head thinks that we are at fault or something.

Okay, so there seems to have things for me to blog about afterall. I will do so, one day.

2008-01-05T01:39:00.001+08:00

This is the 667th post.

Hey, its finally up and coming!

SHOPPING is easy for allll sizes!

2008-01-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

I think that Joakim look like a tikopek in this video and I had no idea this was on TV.

p/s: I AM GOING TO JOIN MISS UNIVERSE 2008 NO MATTER WHAT.

2008-01-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

Daddy Goreeee.

please. said:
hello daddy
larry_fis said:
go to sleep

i speak chinese no better than your favourite indian teacher. said:
sing me to sleep la

larry_fis says:
haha

i speak chinese no better than your favourite indian teacher. says:
noT FUNNYYY

larry_fis says:
haha fat hope

i speak chinese no better than your favourite indian teacher. says:
YOU FAT WAD

larry_fis says:
so.. wad u also fat wad

-.-''' MY DAD IS HORRIBLE.

2007-12-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

E-van got herself a stalker, really.

The power of Nuffnang.com.

2007-12-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

STOLE THIS FROM MEL!

Name: Celine, Cel, Celly, Robotgranny, Coin Operated Doll, Maryline, N.K.Y
Birth Date: 12 June 89
Current Status: Single.
Eye Color: Brown.
Hair Color: Brown and red.
Righty or Lefty: Both

[On the Inside]
Your Heritage: Chinese
Your Fear: COCKroach. Pest.
Your Weakness: Cannot control fart.
Your Perfect Pizza: Cheese.

[Yesterday, Today , Tomorrow]
Your First Thought: CAR LICENSE/
Your Last Thought Before Bedtime: Another day again.
Your Most Missed Memories: Fauzi, Ain, Jessie, Mai and Jam I hope you guys are reading this because *drum roll* I miss the sms threat days! WAHAHAH.

[Your Pick]
Pepsi or Coke: Diet coke.
McDonalds or Burger King: Macd.
Single or Group Dates: Group!
Adidas or Nike: Adidas.
Tea or Nestea: Lipton Tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Hot Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee: Fappuccino?
Smoke: I don't smoke.
Curse: Fudge Monkey!
Take showers: twice a day.
Have a crush: Yea.
Think you are in love: I LOVE DINOSAURS.
Want to get married: yup.
Believe in yourself: duhs.
Think you are a health freak: hahahahahahahhhhahahahahahahahahhahahahaha.

[In the Past Month]
Drank alcohol: Yes.
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: Yes
Eaten sushi: Yes
Dyed your hair: Nope.

[Have You Ever...]
Played a stripping game: Nope.
Changed who you were to fit in: No? OMG, thats dumb. People change to fit in to me OKAY.

[Age]
You are hoping to be married at the age of: 22. I like the number =/

[In a Guy]
Best Eye Color: Brown
Best Hair Color: Dark Brown
Short Hair or Long Hair: Medium.

[What Were You Doing]
1 Min Ago: Using my mouse.
1 Hour Ago: Watching TV.
4.5 Hours Ago: With Intan. At CB.
1 Month Ago: Complaining about the smell at work.
1 Year Ago: Trying my best to recall what happened the last year.

[Finish the Sentence]
I Love: those who love me.
I Feel: like shitting.
I Hate: that stupid computer game. CB.
I Hide: my money under my pillow.

I miss Imran.

2007-12-26T12:14:00.000+08:00

Nearly there and not looking forward.

As 2007 is coming to an end with a quick blink of any of your eyes, I am trying to hold back time. I think I havent been active and neglecting most of the important people in my life. Fuck money and its value seriously. If online shopping arent so addictive, things will be much better for me. Now, as 2007 is coming to an end, I am regretting having how I spent my 2007.

My Indian boyfriend I spotted in the train. Any one know him, please tell him I want to date him. tHaNiEw.

2007-12-22T12:37:00.000+08:00

If you have it, you have it.

Me: *shows hand scratches to mum.
Mum: What happened?
Me: I think I scratched myself while trying to get the paint off me.
Mum: Iyo, so careless.
Me: Or maybe, my boyfriend abused me. Mum! I have an abusive boyfriend. How??
Mum: Ask your boyfriend come home and have dinner lor.
Me: *scratch head. I got no boyfriend la.
Mum: You next year 19 already. I allow you to have boyfriend. So you better bring one home.
Me: *wth face* I bring home Indian one can? PLEASEEEEE.
Mum: No, cannot.
Me: Then can bring what kind one home?
Mum: Chinese or English.
Me: But, I like Indians.
Mum: Cannot. Later I cannot communicate with him.

Iyo, I can communicate can already what. My mum is so random! Then..

Me: I bring back girlfriend can?
Mum: *silence.
Me: Wah, like that one ah. I ask to bring girlfriend, you no answer me.

I went to Dad.

Me: Daddy, I ask mummy if I can bring girlfriend home, she never answer me leh. How can? This world now is changing. Girls also can date girls what. Free world can?
Daddy: Can! You bring home girlfriend and introduce them to me lor. I need to find girlfriend also.

OIIIIIII. Now is I want to turn Lesbian but everyone thinks its a joke. Eeee, I angry with the world ah.

Anyway, I was like throwing my temper about the house (yes, I am 18 and I still throw temper because I am able to still do so *sticks out tongue*) the other day and till now, my dad is still at it. So funny.

Me: You all adopt me one what. Scared that wont have any daughters. See, now skali correct. All sons, no daughters.
Dad: Where got so easy to adopt?
Me: Why not? You better return me back to my real parents.
Dad: Adopted daughters should do the dishes.
Me: Foster fathers should be honest and return adopted daughter to real parents.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH. Till today. He calls me "adopted daughter".

Dad: Adopted daughter come home already ah? Where got such thing as foster father open door for adopted daughter one?
Me: Got. Because you promise my real parents to take extra good care of me.

2007-12-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

Celine ; 18.
Third ADIML.
Theatre student on vacation.

I've got pretty pink toe nails.

The second alarm : 7.45am.

I love my hair in the mornings.

Choose my outfit. Its Friday; dress down day at work.

Brushed teeth and showered.

On the way back to my room, I saw my brother sleeping with his pillow on his face instead. Then, I realised he sleeps like that all the time. I wonder how he breathes.

Bid goodbye to my dad and was expecting him to give me a ride to work but he didnt say a word =/

Tried to look for my youngest brother.

All my slippers are in here, together with my brothers'.

The youngest brother came outta his 'hiding place' and laugh at me because I cant find the right pair of Hava. I wanted to wear.

I found it and realised I am not on schedule.

Then, I rushed and forgot to take photo of the first and second bus I took before reaching to take the third.

( I dont have to take that much bus but because I am lazy to walk to the other bus stop that has the bus to my destination to change to the third bus, I decided to make full use of my bus concession and take three buses instead of two.)

psp-ed while waiting for the third bus to arrive and the bus stop is going through works.

Arrived at office and switched on the computer.

Time-Checked.

James who sat in front of me came shortly after me.

Msn-ed and did some online shopping.

Someone gave me some letters to send out.

Disturbed Yuji. My partner-in-crime at work. We are the only young ones in the office. The rest are above 23.

Time for Lunch!

Q-ed for the lunch shuttle. My office is so serene that only one bus goes there. So they provide us lunch shuttle to 5 different places each day.

Hence, Friday is Clementi Day.

Me and Yuji went to post the letters first. The others went to the Hawker Center to 'book' seats.

Met Kelly on the way. She left us a week after I joined. I told her not to leave and she said that if I joined earlier, she wont have. I am such a joy to work with okay =]

The bad thing about Hawker Center is that there is no air-con and alot of queues.

Went to Automatic Teller Machine and transferred money for my online shopping and share lunch with Yuji. We were both on a lunch diet. Headed back to the office after bidding Kelly goodbye on the lunch shuttle. Realised Pat wasnt with us and called her telling her we left for office already.

Facebook-ed upon reaching office.

Updated the Spree Organisers that I've updated.

Read 8-days which Pat brought. Star Awards is the talk-about currently.

Went to open the letter box and that is mail for today. That is consider little.

I really got nothing else to do at work and I am boring everyone already. My workload is pretty easy and the pay is attractive. I am a lucky bitch to be able to get this sit-down job. I surf the net everyday.

Time-check.

More mails to post.

Shut off the computer. Waited for Yuji to pack up.

Walked down to the nearest postbox which is like at the foot of the hill. Yuji and I wanted to lose a few grams before having dinner. Did I mention that we are on a lunch diet because we want to save space for Free Dinner? Company is having X'mas Party cum dinner. I am only looking forward to free food! And, I love X'mas!

The early birds aka finance dept.

Lucky draw tickets!

My ticket number.

Than, my boss took my camera named Celig for a photoshoot:

FREE FOOD!

Amy, Yuji and me.

Gloria is pretty because she is hairy! I love hairy people. Her brother is hairy too. But, too bad, her brother is already taken =[

Had a piece of bread for starters while watching them play Pool. I suck at Pool and can only play Yahoo~ pool

Somehow everyone went missing.

They went to line up for food and I enjoyed the queue after dragging Yuji away from her Pool game.

I swear it look better real life: grilled fish, vegetables and mash potatoes. I loveeee grill fish!

Typical singalongs at company dinners.

Pat won something at Lucky draw. I didnt get anything =[

The party ended after that but some of us sat down. Talk, drink. I swear my boss is stuffing me with beer the whole night. I kept burping. Very unglam! We all decided to leave 'cause the place was clearing up and a bunch of us decided to go...

Time-checked.

James on the mic.

Suddenly, its going to 3am and I am so sure alcohol was kicking in.

Texted Mother. Ignore the name. My dad's phone that I am using.

My whole family came in the car. Thats my brother, Alvin. No, hes not a chickmunk.

My void deck.

I couldnt stop yawning.

Saw a package for me on my table at home! My boyfriend shirts came =]

Changed.

Wash my legs and was lazily tired to bath.

Charged my phone and realised its dark outside. Its been a long time since I stayed up this late.

Time I went to bed.

2007-12-17T16:37:00.000+08:00

Its a big job.

25 Mar 2008 Tue, 8pm - Maroon 5

7 Mar 2008 Fri, 8:00PM - Incubus

4 Feb 2008 Mon, 8pm - The Police

Could you please please bring me.

2007-12-12T11:28:00.000+08:00

Call BR to repair the HR printer.

How many birthday dates can an average person remember? How many birthdays have you celebrated for friend(s)? How many surprise birthdays have you organised for friend(s)?

Well, today, this doofu turned a year older. And, I still love him lots.

Dear I.M.M,

Happy eggteen! No biggie also. You already started to enjoy life. We (you, me and ~~dupree~~ Intan) can go get our license together! I am eating the most irresistable chocolate now at work. I am having period but, I cleverly went to wear white pants =/. I love you lah. The end.

p/s: I am not as good as you when it comes to mushy love letters.

LuRbs, C.N.K.Y

2007-12-09T01:11:00.000+08:00

BingBeng

I got my two weeks pay on friday but there is only half left. I am not miserable because it is the season of jolly! I did most of the shopping online and my butt is getting bigger. I am sending Rum and Rashmi theirs by airmail. I bet they are gonna be sooooooooo happy to see what I've got them.

Here's a list of people that I've gotten presents for:
Rum
Rashmi
Daeia
Intan
JJ
Vickie
E-van

I reckon I am gonna plan a get-together for NAFA peeps after Xmas so I will be able to give them the presents. I love Xmas! The remaining amount is for my family. I've still got two paychecks which will have to last me till end of Jan because Daddy is going overseas till then.

11th December is getting clearer.
Jin, Richy Boy, Rau and Hafiz is going NS.

2007-12-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

Second post in 5 minsutes.

It really show how bored am I at work. I've got like twenty minutes more to Lunch and I'm hungry already. Sitting down job freezes my butt off very easily. Wrapped up with cardigans didnt work so I tried jackets, sweaters. Still, it didnt work.

My english is horrible. Very word I CAPS is sarcasm =/

I need a more games in Phizza (coincidentally Emoboy is talking to me about Pizzahut delivery mats). $90 for a 4g memory card that is filled with games, worth it? Imran got his at $80 without games. Market price = $5 for a game. According to Imran, he managed to stuff 14 games once in his card. Lets say, the uncle managed to stuff 10 games. 10 x $5 = $50. $90 - $50 = $40. Which means I will be paying $40 for the card.

Oh, the joy of maths =]]

My last day in this Cordlife thingy is on 18th Dec and I already started on looking for a new job. I will return to California Fitness but that will be when school starts. I mean, why will I give up a higher paying job during Holidays?

Did I mention how much I love Xmas despite the fact that I will have alot of problem getting presents?

I miss the classmates.

I want/need to hang out with these ppl:
Jolene
Cheryl
Adam
Nigel Pek
Wendy Ng
Jessie
Jaminah
Maisarah
Ain
Fauzi A
Sofie
Weini
Shawn
Sue
Shahidah
Zaf
Chaz
Wandee
Jin
Rauzan
Alif
Syarif
Seri
Fique-O
Jacklyn
Idharm
Dinky
Linny~
Finaaaaaa
Nashir
Ayukz
Izzy
Sonia
Amal
Fairul
Anis
Thosai Man
Ashreen
Rena
Mai'sur
Paychin
Melvin
Kelly
Py
QiJun
Desiree
Hafiz
Erika
Seri A
Genieve
Matthew Ho
.
.
.

I tell you the list can go on and on siak.

2007-12-06T10:38:00.000+08:00

Pretty In Pink.

My grandma brought me the ugliest handphone dangling thingy. But I still hang it on my phone. Because it might be the last thing my grandma brought for me. I love my grandma. She's one strong woman. Her husband pass away when I was barely 7. Yet, she is still able to bring the festival spirits to everyone of us even though there was someone missing in her life; our lives.

She plans singlehandedly most of the family gatherings. She plans Malaysia trips for Community Centre's Old Folks at her area. She cooks, washes and cleans after my two unmarried uncle who is still staying with her. She cooks the best wanton and I always have two bowls hot and ready for me to eat when I step into her house door.

My grandma, the wonderwoman.

p/s: Paternal.

2007-12-04T11:06:00.000+08:00

Question not answers.

If one has a boyfriend but still thinks of her ex, or rather, other guys, is that consider cheating on the boyfriend?

I wish there was a definate answer to that because I am guilty of such an act most of the time but hello, a function of the eyes is to do some boy-watching, yes, no?

I do not think of my ex-boyfriends (there are nothing much to think about anyway) as most of them are still very good friends of mine. Maybe outta 10 (no, I dont have that much ex-boyfriends), only 2 of them are not on talking terms. Not because of a bad breakup but because we dont have time to go say 'Hi'. I meet the rest of the 8 quite often.

And bodoh, before you start saying I am a slut with that amount of ex-boyfriends, let me let you in a secret; I am not a minah. Minahs have problems with all their ex-boyfriends. Once again, I dont have that much ex-boyfriends. It is just an example.

About other guys. One cannot help but look at the direction of someone hot/handsome/pretty/mediocore/etc. These eyes are meant for looking like these boots are meant for walking. It not like you LOVE that someone who you just saw. I do not believe in love at first sight.

Wait, I dont even believe in love in our age.

2007-11-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

hello, Cordlife. __

Stole this from PostSecret.

I always love answering phone calls till today...

So, I am a temp. Admin Assistant in Cordlife Pte Ltd which is located at Singapore Science Park III, earning a very humble and handsome paycheck. I hope that doesnt mean that I've to be at your beck and call 24/7, period. This whole idea of working in a office environment is seriously not me. I sit nearly 6hours a day in this dog-smelling office. I msn, myspace, blog, fridae, facebook, etc. Boringgggg~

Taken from TheSuperficial.

My legs are exactly like this. I feel so fat when my thighs rub against each other. There is no breathing space between the two legs. I dont look good in skinnies and jeans. Plus, I look as if I've got short body. I can only wear skirt/shorts because it make my legs slimmer and with the thighs rubbing against each other, I dont feel confident at all. Boohoo.

Tomorrow's teh Audition. The Horror. I am not prepared. My portfolio is nothing worth seeing. Kimboy just told me what to expect because hes was today. So he was asked to dance on the spot. Very funny. I think I know how to spell the word 'DIE'. I prolly youtube for some random dance moves later and try my best. Gah. Wish me luck?!?

2007-11-29T14:44:00.000+08:00

Everyone's talking.

Enchanted is so enchanting.

when you meet the someone who was meant for you,
before two can become one there's something you must do

there is something sweeter
everybody needs
i've been dreaming of a true loves kiss
and a prince i'm hoping comes with this
that's what brings ever afterings so happy
that's the reason we need so much
for lips are the only things that touch

so to spend a life of endless place
just find who you love
through true loves kiss

ahahaha ahahaha......ahahahahaha

she's been dreaming of a true loves kiss
and a prince she's hoping comes with this
that's what brings ever afterings so happy
that's the reason we need lips so much
for lips are the only things that touch

so to spend a life of endless place
just find who you love
through true loves kiss

you're the fairest maid i've ever met
you are made
to finish your duet

how we kept true love
and ruin true love
since first we know
a, a true loves kiss..

2007-11-29T13:58:00.000+08:00

I miss my dad.

p/s: I've always been a daddy's girl.

2007-11-27T09:51:00.000+08:00

Save now, no?

Even though I wanted it to last and many gave their blessings, I think its impossible for us to get back together. Two months of loving, fun and bliss is enough for me. Plus, the a month plus we were together in April. I think its really enough.

I still <33 you mani mani.

2007-11-22T17:16:00.000+08:00

No wait for me!

i think The Mayday Parade are losers. says:
near nus somemore
i think The Mayday Parade are losers. says:
everyday i feast my eyes with hot angmoh =]
i think The Mayday Parade are losers. says:
with hairy bread
i think The Mayday Parade are losers. says:
WAD THE FUCK IS HAIRY BREAD SIAK
i think The Mayday Parade are losers. says:
hahaha
i think The Mayday Parade are losers. says:
beard
i think The Mayday Parade are losers. says:
**

I think I am the loser.

2007-11-16T16:46:00.000+08:00

The season to be jolly.

Assessments are so over and done with.

9th Nov 07
Introduction to Stage:
I've got no idea what I wrote in the entire paper. According to the lecturer, Nelson, he never fail anyone before unless we cheat. The paper reminded me of literature papers back in Secondary school and boy, I love literature =] It felt like english comprehension plus literature text. I love written work.

12th Nov 07
Acting:
Andrew and Matt's acting group ( i belong to the latter) had to show what we have done during the past few months. Matt's group did animal work and I thank god Im in Andrew's class for I sure dont like animal work. I absent myself for animal work. Our group did our basic exercises aka games that we often do in class than mask work. I used to hate mask work but I think I dont like animal work more so I didnt skip a single class after animal work. The mask stinks I tell you and I can hardly breath.

14th Nov 07
I skipped Elizabeth's class because it was raining and I went back to sleep after my alarm rang at 0730h. JJ called at 9ish asking if I am going to late but I was still in bed. I love rain especially in the morning. I went back to sleep and was a few minutes late for Singapore Stage. The bloody cab fare cost me more than usual.

Singapore Stage:
SGstage was easy. 2 essay questions. 200 words each. I conclude that its not that hard to write alot. I love english language. I love writing. I love SGstage. Its the you dont have to study kind of paper. All common sense. Thank god I never heed someone's "advice" to study. I just have to pass the paper to get a 'B'grade. The paper reminds me of Geography papers.

Singing Class:
Singing assessment was horrible. I failed the class participation part of the assessment but pass the performance. However, I dont feel good myself. I cannot sing and hate singing so its pretty good if I can belt out in front of so many people yet score that low. He should have taken that into consideration but oh well, with people that had gone thru singing competition(s) and have a job as a singer in a pub, I can still pass the performance part very good already. Plus, the singing competition one never perform. That person just stood there singing with little movements from his heavy hands, he managed to get full marks. Waste my effort to put up a performance.

15th Nov 07
Analysis and Answers of World Theatre Masterpieces:
I dont know what is wrong with me seriously. Cab day again. At least this time was cheaper, less heartaching. ~~And there is always Baby to count on if I am broke~~. I was like 5 to 10 minutes late? First part of the paper was MCQ on the writers and their nationality. About 1/4 of the questions, I was deciding if their names sounded Italian or English. I feel retarded now. The essay was about our defination of 'Masterpieces' and of course, I did the paper will my common sense all out. Pretty easy as well. A pass will mean a 'C'grade. It reminded me of Social Studies paper.

Had an evaluation session with Andrew. Apparently, I had nothing but postive comments from most lecturers =]]
Claire: Potentially Talented.
Andrew: A very good actor.
Moon: Written very good.

Claire has always been the female Simon Cowell. I skipped like half of her classes and I wasnt expecting something good because of my bad diction and non improvement and wrong breathings. I've still got my tongue stud and according to most of my classmates, they think its the stud that is hindering my diction which I dont think so. I remembered Claire said something about us, humans, being lazy and not wanting to pronounce words the way it should be pronounced.

Andrew still remembered me from the auditions which is both good and bad. It shows that I've made an impression but I thought I totally screwed auditions up =/

The only problem I have is attendance. I am working on it people!

16th Nov 07
LATE AGAIN. Joakim called and wake me up but I went back to sleep. Luckily daddy was home so I got him to fetch me to school if not another cabfare I've got to fork out and he was complaining the whole entire time (because of ERP and his cashcard no money left). I just kept quiet because I know there is confirm not gonna be a next time for today is the last day of term!

Body and Movement:
I bumped into Emoboy at the lobby. Changed into comfy clothes and headed to class, was just in time because Elizabeth just came in also. I think I didnt do well for this because I've got completely no idea what I did. Skipping classes didnt help either. Just hope all my written work (journals and essay) is enough to pull the grade up to a Pass.

That marked the end of the week, the end of school term, the beginning of a well-deserved term break. And, the beginning of a new job. I must stop depending on Baby.

2007-11-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

I very uppppset ah.

Baby, I wish you will experience menstration pain and the journey.

2007-11-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

When tomorrow is here.

Wednesday love = Dressup day for me and Daeia. So that Wednesday,we get to school in school uniform! It kinda made some classmates miss their school and it was our motive. We look so fucking slim here laaa.

Camwhore-d in Macd. Some random indian guys were looking but up theirs.
I had my hair up in two ponies and Daeia loves this photo of us. So candid and yes, I know I got good angles.

Completed with school socks and shoes okay. My shoes went moshing with me hence its rotting already.

Daeia me kae in the school toilet.

Our 3-in-1 Lecturer, Mr Moon. My, my eyes are soooo small.

Me Rashmi. I see boncit here kkzzz diam.

Me B (the goth rocker in class). Yes, I was wearing red bra and I love it.

School girls all over again. Olevels graduate. Im surprise I still fit into my skirt perfectly!

2007-11-08T12:34:00.000+08:00

Becuz of you and you and you

VOTE NOW!

p/s: Intan PS, I love you. Till Death Do Us Part. <3333348765

2007-11-04T22:12:00.001+08:00

Back to Basics

Government is seriously making fun of me.

7 Dec - Oqyan
11 Dec - Jin
11 Jan 08 - Nigel Pek
March 08 - Az and Isk.

2007-11-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

rOxYgUrL89 LuRps bOiiManjjA_69

2007-10-18T00:31:00.000+08:00

please vote for me. says:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7RS-Gweg7bI
please vote for me. says:
favourite it for me. thanks

and I lip sync because it was the requirement.

2007-10-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

Free Seating.

So, the trip to the Dean's was what I expected; A whole lot of side tracks. I had a really good time in his office and I think I've got many more trips to come. It seems like deja vu in a different environment. First, Mr Low Ai. Now, Dr Lee.

I spoke like a machine gun the entire time because I just wanted to sound like everything is urgent and important to me. I think I got that across. Dean happily joke with me too. All is well I reckon. I just need to work more on the attendance (again) because a couple of Lecturers are ~~actually~~ worried for me.

Rummy was like asking why is Dean's face full of laughter when Thomas made everything so serious in class and till now, I've got no idea why but since the case has come to an closure, lets just leave it that way. I got a huge feeling I know who was the tell-a-tale but then again, there is no point in pursuing it.

Anyway, just bear this in mind: Once you thread on my toes, your hippy days are over.

Three years isnt a short period of time and I am very easy to get along with if you are on good terms with me. Dont give me a chance to make your life miserable really. When I boycott, I do it the Hardcore Way. If you dont kacau me, I wont even talk to you. Simple as that. Sometimes, I just love being bitchy.

Singing class again tomorrow. I havent sang my slow nor upbeat song. I need to get rid of my mini me that says: You cant sing. Dont embarrass yourself. 'Cause almost everyone in my class say I can. So I must do it. This class is nothing but motivation I tell you.

RulNas, better dont skip class. Take care of Celig.

2007-10-16T00:48:00.000+08:00

Time and again.

You never know how I feel when I dont turn up for school. Yet, the way you talk to me is like I do not put in any effort to come to school. You may be disappointed but what makes you so sure that I am not myself? Gah.

End.

2007-10-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

2150

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf zahir dan batin. Kalau ada salah, maaf kan aku.

I used to like type out a messages for close friends and seek forgiveness. I decided to skip that this year. Because, school is taking its toll on me with its deadlines.

Saturday was spent at work, bestie's house and MOS. Work was okay because its only 4 hours from 0530h to 1130h. Intan's place for rendang, gaga-ing over Jonas Brothers, Suria broadcasting of Malaysia you-can-cry-movies, Internet and more rendang. Then, got home and bathe. Changed my outfit two times because I think I look damn fat. Went to meet Chaz Ali and waited for Jin (tha rOcksTa) then, head to MOS.

Chaz got into the finals. Hes bringing me to BEP concert. Jin, you are still the best in my heart. The 'knnbccb' verse was overrated.

After watching the battle last night, I think I am better than most of them. But one thing that they have and that I dont is Courage which sucks. I find one rapper very cute. He got that i-dont-know-what-am-i-doing-here-but-i-have-good-punchlines confused look. I think that is to uh, confuse his opponent?

Anyway, I must go school tomorrow.

p/s: My brother is on the phone with his girlfriend and that is very disturbing.

2007-10-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

Oh the horror moral.

Three straight days of not attending school. Exams are coming but I dont know when and I am very bothered by it because I do not know what to expect. Quoted and unquoted by Lecturer; " You wont start studying even if I tell you what to expect now." I seriously dont know why am I paying higher school fees than those in Poly.

I think I created the longest rant in a sentence. Awards please.

And like none of the classmates bother to ask. Am I the only one who do not anything about exams or are they just uh, blonde <-no offense man. Plus, if I dont want to start studying, I wont even ask. Wastage of saliva during ramadhan is uncalled for.

Deadlines, deadlines and more deadlines means I am dead, dead and I could just die now if I am not dead yet. However, I am done with 2 Theatre Visit Reports and during my three absence in school, I am trying hard to get away from Heroes and to my assignments. Please be proud of me.

What I've left:

3 Theatre Visit Reports - 2nd Nov
1 Theatre portfolio - 26 Oct
1 A&A portfolio - 9th Nov
Filing - 6th Nov

And I still got one more presentation and a written report while most of my classmates are already done with their two presentations and written reports. I need to go popular and get A3 papers to do my portfolio which I got no idea of how I want to do it. Yes, creativity doesnt count in this course but I am artsy fartsy okay.

I think the portfolio is something like D&T.

2007-10-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

Pokpok-kkkk.

Trouble has been following me since Primary 4 and I allowed it to follow me. I often get into so much trouble in school but able to get away with it. So I dont really care. My blog got me into trouble before. I nearly couldnt take my Olevels. So?

Now, its youtube. I got no idea how the school find out but I read the student's handbook. They never mention anything about video-ing classmates of another class. Hehh. I didnt know it was against the law too. Porn dont get ban. Videos of classmates do. I am getting confused here.

Anyway, yes. I chickened (teacher's word) out in singing class again. I cant sing. I hate to sing. Going for singing classes are like asking me to jump off the 4 storey building. Since I know I cant sing, why should I tak tahu malu and sing?

Especially when there is a classmate who loves to sing and can sing, points out the faults who cant and make them look like a fool. No thanks man. I salute those who went out of pitch and look like a fool when that classmate purposely pointed the mistake out loud.

Vickie skipped singing today. She should have called me earlier. I realised that I have another friend who detest singing as well. I dont know why I could belt out a couple of notes when I am with my friends and in front of the teacher, I chickened out.

I have been rolling my eyes since the start of the post. To me, that is not chickening out. It is call knowing my level. I see no reason to stoop to any level just to complete my studies in the Academy. I miss English, Maths, Science.

If not for Claire's words, I think I will have already dropped out and take private Alevels. But, because she looked down on me, I wont give in. Even if I have to repeat her module next year. And by the way, my written english has always been better than my spoken. Orals = Pass. Compo = Distinction. *sticks tongue out. So what if I got a tongue stud and dont have proper diction? Want to write diss track not? HAHAHHAAH.

Gah. Meeting the Head tomorrow. Must be the youtube issue. *must-stop-rolling-eyes. I must remember to tell him about the sleeping issue as well. I wonder if there is suspension in tertiary education as well. Back in Yuhua, my DM kept saying she wants to suspend me. And she did it. After a good 4 years -.-'''.

The irony thing is I got suspended not because of blog nor the number of times I am defiant to the teachers, but for skipping detention seven times that year.

2007-10-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

Oh mY dEaR liiFe.

Have I mention how much I hate National Service? I wish I got the courage to protest against the government with this issue. National Service should not be compulsury. Attached guys should be ban from going National Service.

I have more guyfriends than girlfriends. The only reason why Rummy, Rashmi and Daeia are the only girls I hang around more often than the 10 other girls in my class. It feels so weird that there are only 4 guys in my class and I am pretty close with 3 of them. Namely, Darryl, Joakim and JayJay. I dont know why I cannot communicate good with Xavier. I think hes prolly the first guy I cannot talk to. Gah.

I think girls are the most cunning species. Hence, I tend to chose girlfriends wisely. Those I hang around more often usually stay till death do us part. Take Intan for an example <33

Guys are....nothing goes. They dont really care much which is why I love hanging out with them. They arent like girls. Sissy (except Oh Darryl). Girls care too much about topshop, f21, etc. Irritating. I rather be out there, joking and watching Hardcore Driveby singaporean style. Haha.

But, I love shopping, no doubt. I am the bargaining queen. They need to print that on a tee instead of that overrated: Number 1 shopping queen. It is worst than the Little Miss series. *roll eyes.

Anyway, side tracked a whole lot. I want to say: I miss Chaz Ali. I miss Nashir. I want to cry badly. Stupid NS. They are so near yet so far. Next will be Iryan & Kai. A year later, Rudy,Mean & Az. Another year later, Nas, Jark, Sufiyan & Ming. Oh the horror.

I shall not think too much. Must hang out with the guys as often as possible before its too late. Shite, this Saturday, Raya already. That will mean I two weeks never hang out with them. Never mind. There is always Jalan Raya to look forward to. Nas, same colour amcm?

2007-10-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

urge.

Weird. How I love to flood my blog with tons of pictures in a period of time and then, bore all readers with only lines after lines of my rants. Aiya, not like I care like that. Some people say I blog what I like to blog which is damn true. However, I was disappointed at his words. That was how he looked at me =/

Meanwhile, enjoy the below pictures!

Legendary Emo Boy with my pretty heels and my mum's handbag. Told you hes gay.

I met Jack up after a loooonggg time. I miss her so much. I need to hang out with Linn~ soon or I will so die. I smell a bitching session.

Shawn shawn + Jack = Hardcore ex-gf bitching sessions.

I badly need a Ipod. Although I just upgraded my going-to-be-a-year-old PSP, I think it takes up alot of space in my bag. Somemore, I dont need to bring anything to sch but PSP, Wallet and Handphone. I pay 3,000bucks for school fees somemore. I love my Anberlin shirt. It makes me look not fat.

I need this girl to ask me out. Twins Mosh Rocks.

Ahneh and Tangachi aka Monkey boy and Violent Moshing Girl. Cannot make it laaa hor, ahneh.

The L word life partner.

My saturday entertainment = the ol gang. They say new is better than old. I say, OLD IS NEVER FORGOTTEN and ALWAYS BE LOVED.

2007-10-07T09:32:00.000+08:00

ADIML two

woke up. switched on my lappy.

youtube-d for Mandy Moore's songs for my singing class next wednesday. I hate singing class 'cause I cant sing. So my lecturer told me that I have to be well prepared beforehand and that will give me confident in singing. However, that never work but I am still trying =/

Went to shower

Towel dried my hair and I dont like to comb my hair. Weird for a girl.

Did two of my theatre visit reports 'cause I felt fresher. Plus, I skipped school today. Will feel uneasy if I dont do any of my work. Deadlines are getting nearer anyway.

Continued watching Heroes. Then, it stopped and I had to youtube-d it instead.

Wireless sucks. It keep disconnecting and connecting time and again. Irritates me alot.

then, I got up and went to my mini fridge. took a slip from my carton of milk. Yes, I love having fridge in my room. I keep all my goodies from my brothers!

Speak of the devil. The youngest one came into my room and fiddled with my sexy bag.

The other one come in 5 mins later and passed me my letter which he went to open.

Finally, my ibanking password arrived in post.

Back to my com. Msn-ed and fought with Kai online. Really stupid.

Time check.

recieved a msg.

Dressed my wounds I gotten from Playing with Text class. All the practical lessons are making my knees not any better but I still love my course.

Rummy text again and this time, I got dressed.

My outfit for the day. Was feeling hero-ic.

Still in time.

Had a hard time waking my brother up because I was supposed to allow him to tag along.

He stood up and climb into the bed to sleep again. I gave up and left without him.

Waited for bus at the bus stop to head to the train station and got a shock. My PSP and camera left a bar of battery!

didn't wait long for the train.

Darryl text me.

Had to change train because I am heading to the north/ I stay in the west and I hate changing trains

Met Rummy and Rashmi at Woodlands.

Walked to Causeway Point mall and asked for two paper bags from Burger King.

Headed to NTUC and got green apples.

Then, make our way to a birthday party. Nearly got lost. Thank god for kind souls that we asked who lead us the right way there.

Reached Rosewood Condo where the party was held at.

Two foreigners who are very excited.

Rummy is from Indonesia.

Rashmi is from Thailand.

The party was organised by two pretty famous teenage blogger. I won an invite and was allowed to bring two friends. What I was looking forward to was just the food. I was broke that week.

Food!

The leftover green apple. I got 5. 4 went to the two bloggers.

Rummy was fasting. And she ate before us because it was time for her to break fast.

There was bbq-ing too and I hate bbq-ing. However, there was like no one doing the bbq-ing and I was very hungry. Free party = DIY. So I had like no choice and also, I dont know anyone there.

In the end, a group of hungry boys came to the pit and started bbq-ing too. Good, at least I got company. We joked and one said: Hey, you look Chinese. I gave him the -.-'' look and replied: Duhs, I am Chinese.

Time check again.

My nicely bbq-ed chicken wings.

cheers to that.

Deserts.

We decided to leave after that. Not waiting for the cake-cutting.

Down the stairs.

push the button and the gate opens.

Places we walked pass. Woodlands Civic Center and The Bazaar.

Bid goodbye to Rummy.

Brought Rashmi to The Bazaar.

I brought drinks.

Walked ard for abit and got some stuffs. Then, decided to head home because The Bazaar is small as compared to the one in Geylang.

Topped up my ez-card.

Going down to the bus interchange. Decided to just take the bus home. Although longer way but at least, I dont have to change train.

Time check

Psp didnt die on me yet.

Traffic jam. I regretted taking the bus afterall.

It got peaceful.

As I was appoaching home. Jam again.

I reached earlier than I expected.

Pressed the bell and alighted at the WRONG stop. Walked the rest of the way.

stopped a weird guy. (at the left hand side)

Reached home finally. My other brother opened the door. Ive got three younger brothers.

Saw a half naked brother

Loaded my drinks into my mini fridge and finished up my milk.

switched lappy on and went to shower.

Time for bed. And I realised I was in the same PJs the first time I did my adiml in Discomomma

2007-10-05T12:03:00.000+08:00

to ahneh, with love.

I'm sorry and I knew I disappointed you time and again.

and no, people. I am not being sarcastic this time round.

2007-10-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

My feet itchy.

Its weird how a long-time-no-see primary school friend comment on how I dont look Chinese anymore. Actually, deep down, I still very de cheena one. So what if I dOnt tyyPe LiiKe tHat? I believe in recarnation, karma, etc. Most of all, I believe when Yan Long Wang wants you to report, you have to report.

Yan Long Wang is Guard of Hell. He summons you to his desk when its your time to leave Earth.

I wonder when is my time. My tummy hurts like fuck because of period. This is always the time where I will feel like heeding Intan's advice; "Die and ask God why." I think that God and us is only a phone call away but we never know his direct number. We leave voicemail by praying. But God's phone cannot return calls. I think He lost his SIM card.

Or maybe, He forgot to topup his Prepaid.

My acting class had another trip to the zoo and I ended up sitting in a wheelchair because 1) I was lazy to walk. 2) The wheelchair was lent to us for free by the zoo. 3) Cramps! We took turns on the wheelchair is was like a mini roller coaster ride for the roads were pretty bumpy. At least now if I were to act as if I were on a roller coaster, I can make it realistic.

Oh. I went for an audition to join SRT and I got offered a spot. Micheal had a hard time deciding to want me or not because I made them all laugh too much. Then, I realised I made Andrew laugh during my NAFA audition too. It made Micheal think that I cannot be serious but Andrew thought my personality outshines.

I bombarded Andrew questions on our way to the Zoo. He was more then happy to answer and he still got our audition tapes! I so want to watch it! But, lecturers are all selfish. Not only they not want to share the answers to the exam questions, they also dont want to show us our audition tapes.

Anyway, I just got information that I need to fucking pay 1,500 buckaroos for course fee for a year. And if I am good, the following two years will be on them. I do not have 1,500 buckaroos to spare. I need my driver's license more!

My feet stinks. I am a bad friend. I still love you, Intan.

2007-09-30T01:46:00.000+08:00

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2007-09-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

Give me a week.

One group down. A few more to go.

2007-09-23T02:30:00.000+08:00

Right back at ya.

Online shopping is very addictive especially when the items are still cheaper than in the stores after shipping price. I missed Threadless' summer sale this year. My mother rocks because she allows me to use her credit card. Sometimes, I never pay her back eg. Singfest ticket.

I've been at mtvasia.com since I switched Aspiral on. I badly want to go and see The Click Five live but not willing to pay that amount just to see The Click Five be the opening band. Ben Romans...come to me lah.

Why is the weather getting warmer? And I think a group of my friends are partying somewhere without me. Are they even friends to begin with if that is the case. I dont know. You tell me? Never mind. Ignorance is always bliss. I will just look forward to meeting Ruzaini and Intan tomorrow then some classmates for a play.

I cant believe I am gonna miss a trip to my granny's tmr. Oh, the amount of wantons/mooncake/tangyuan = calories = love/hate relationships. I miss my granny. The feeling of playing with lanterns are gone but the love for mooncakes is still ongoing!

Can you please come online? I dont know why but I miss you badly. I wish I wont be able to see her working tomorrow. I got a feeling I will confirm carik pasal. Linn~, I need you online as well. Long time no bitching session. Somemore, its fasting month. Need to choose time to bitch.

Okay, I need to start on Bogeyman and Kim-boy just told me that I need to perform it. Thank god Elizabeth going on seminar on Wednesday. That means I got a few more days to finish up her 'Jungle, Betrayl and Captured' which I will need someone's help again.

2007-09-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

The Click Five coming to SG.

I've got completely no idea as of what to blog but God and someone gave me strength to come to this very page. I know I dont have tons of tags/comments but my hits are getting more and more each day. And no, I do not refresh my own page okay.

Anyway, I think by now everyone should know how much I love reading blogs and hate the tagging part because 1) you got to return back to the blog and read what the blogger replied. 2) sometimes, they reply s-l-o-w and you lazy wait for them to reply. 3) you tag them, they dont tag you. So what for?

The tag-o-war in Sue's blog finally died down and then, I saw Amalina's blog with another tag-o-war booming. I, hereby, thank God that I never encounter such rubbish here @classesindetention because 1) there was a period of time I lazy reply tags at my blog hence, people stop tagging. They save me the hassle. 2) I died down in bitching hardcore about random people which sucks. 3) -insertyourownreasonhere-.

You know, hate tags/comments make people grow. They say they are not bothered but deep down, I am so sure they actually reflect on what is so bad about themselves that people dislike. For me, I am the fuck-you-the-whole-world-evolves-around-me type. Kim-boy says I have ego as big as the sun.

So what made my ego? People who does hate tags/comments. When they admit defeat and apologise, they boost my ego by an inch or more. So far, people who find trouble in my blog ended up losing. If I didnt recall wrongly, one girl delete her blog, myspace and friendster after she lost because I blog about her secrets that she didnt think I know for she was a random girl who stumbled in here. Oh, I am such a sadist.

On a lighter note, mooncake festival is coming. Any random romantic ~~rich and dying old man~~guy want to ask me out to Chinese Garden? I never been there despite living a MRT station away. I will bring Celig along and take cool snapshots of the both of us =] I want eat mooncake!

2007-09-19T01:35:00.000+08:00

Boldway.

Hey, that's my outfit on 19th July 07, orientation day in NAFA. I even have that stupid NAFA bag between my fat legs! Green M&S top, purple OP shorts and black flowered Hav. Although the picture is blur and obviously taken using a camera phone, JJ could recognise it was me.

This picture was posted in that "photographer"'s friendster and JJ stumbled across it. And he didnt bookmark that page. So I can never find out who that ~~fucker~~person is. But, who cares. I didnt know I have stalker and oh yea, the caption to that was: Most arrogant girl on the train or something.

Oh, am I obliged to fucking smile at everyone on the damn train esp when I had to wake up so bloody early in the morning just to attend some school's orientation? Please my smile is priceless and fuck, do I even know you not? I can so fucking sue you although I also love to take photo of people in the train.

You know, I dont mind being labeled as arrogant because I know I act like that all the time. I am lazy and cannot be bothered to mingle about. Almost all my current classmates had the same first impression anyway. JJ even vow he will never talk to me 'cause he think I think I diva.

Ha to the last sentence. I am alone in this world most of the time. Why bother?

2007-09-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

Miracle of the century.

I miss my long long hair. Then, I miss my ol-so scene hair. Now, I kinda regret chopping it off and having a damn cheena fringe. Someone even thought that I Malay and I created 'Cel' to be cheena. Eh, what is the world turning into?

2007-09-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

SHE IS JUST ANOTHER RIHANNA.

ONE DAY YOU WILL SNAP OUT OF IT.

BECAUSE IT IS SHOWBIZ AFTERALL.

2007-09-16T01:42:00.000+08:00

Temptations.

I have been secretly reading classmates' blogs. I didn't tag because I am a lazy kid and half of my links are not working. This blog layout has been there since early this year? That explains. I always have a thing for reading blogs so I maybe stalking you, you and you.

Heres to Mel;
Hey sorry that I back out on Kayaking. When I first pen my name down, I was thinking that yes, I should seriously try to go under the sun. Then, when I received your text, I realised that its Ramadha and for your information, I fast. I didn't mean to back out and i believe the other 5 people didn't mean it either but if it spoilt your mood, my bad then.

( I've actually got shitloads to type but suddenly, I am suffering from what they call- writer's block. Pardon me.)

I brought The Click Five lastest album because there is a special invitation inside. I die die want to see The Click Five. Oh, Ben Romans. He makes me drool ~~and wet down there~~. When I see them, the only thing I'll do is sit there and just look up and down at them. Yes, I am a fan of them.

Saturday was well spent with the Saturday People. I'm glad that The Best Friend is feeling less shitty and I love sending her MMS. I stupidity wore slippers out today, knowing that we will end up going for AVA's gig at Youth Park. How to mosh I ask you? My slippers cost SG$26.90 can? So I mosh at the side for the first few songs.

Then, decided to ask The Best Friend for shoes. After I changed into comfy footwear, they just had to play slow songs. I only got to mosh to the last song at full blast. But then, I didn't get hurt at all and seeing the gang mosh again brings back memories when Puppetcase was still together and HSC was still alive. I had a great time laughing.

I miss Fina, Linn~ and Ayukz. The three girls I always see in the moshpit, having so much fun. I always bump into Fina in moshpits. Scary. Other then these three girls, I hardly see any other fun-loving-not-scene females moshing. Like today, I was the only girl in the damn moshpit filled with hormones-raging little ~~white~~ boys. There were some girls at the back, at the side and head-banging scene girls at the front.

You know. I get really very sensitive when it comes to my Chinese name. I can count with my fingers the number of people who know my Chinese name. I got completely no idea why I dislike it so much when some people find it very nice. And I only respond to my Chinese teachers when my Chinese name is being called out. Other than that, the whole fucking class can stare at me waiting for me to respond but I cant be bothered.

If my English name is behind my Chinese name, I will prolly be nice and inform the ~~cock-eyed~~ teacher that I do have another name. But nooo, my English name is before my Chinese. Hence, therefore, thus, I believe it is only right to call me by my first name which is, Celine.

Very nice name, I know.

2007-09-12T17:09:00.000+08:00

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88%

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88%

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88%

Psychology/Sociology

88%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

75%

Mathematics/Statistics

75%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

69%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

69%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

56%

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50%

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44%

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Freakily I love to study about Humans and since I got into Theatre, being a Drama Teacher is my ambition now. Oh praise the lord!
Btw, I got that from a classmate; Farah

2007-09-12T15:09:00.000+08:00

Why are you so scared?

"You can take photos but not with you kind of camera." -Security.

What the fuck. Oh, so I brought Celig for fun, laughter, peace, joy, love and harmony is it? Too bad the place is sooo dark that Celig blend well with the surrounding. Up yours, securities. But jumping fuckers refused me a chance to take a shoot of the drummer and the bassist.

Anyway, I got a couple of good shots of the vocalist and boy, i was this close to FFAF. The only thing I hated about the gig was the time. It was like less than two hours? What a waste of Darryl's money. I made a new friend and Biantra won himself a pair of Macbeths. I stupidity thought that Daniel Ong only asked B up and not the both of us. Damn that pair of Macbeths. Could have given it to Shawn Shawn.

I am so getting tickets to Black Eyed Peas only because The Click Five is their opening band. I love love the The Click Five till this very day. So what if they are soo Backstreet Boys? I always wanted to meet Ben Romans, that sexy hobo keyboardist (thats what Darryl calls him).

Two weeks of tuitorial has lead me into complete boredom within a few days. I am not starting on my reviews for god-knows-what-reason. Tomorrow is Zoo trip with the classmates. Not really very sure if I am looking into smelling animals and their dungs but I miss the classmates' nonsenses.

I need to meet up with people that I havent seen in ages soon. Like the five people that made Sec5 interesting. Sorry I was harsh, Ain but I was really fucking piss. I miss Cheryl, Nigel, Linn~, RP LIB GANG, etc.

Speaking of which, Saturday people may just be history.